Proverbs of a 36 yr old man
It is not a normal thing to get whatever you want at whatever time you ask. I know you have an itch for things to be your way, but apply patience generously. Lather it up in your hands, and use it as much as necessary. The Lord has more than enough and gives freely the Holy Spirit. Give patience time to settle in your mind so you can have clear judgment. Let it dissolve your pride away so that your heart is pure. Earthly patience is a quick scratch till the flesh is exposed, producing folly. But Godly patience is a quick lather to protect integrity, producing wisdom. Patience is a virtue, pray for it.
Read Prov. 14:29
https://biblehub.com/proverbs/14-29.htm