Proverbs of a 38 yr old man
Sometimes I feel like a ghost. I breeze in and out without no one noticing, without no one caring. I am even a ghost to myself always hiding the real me and pretending to be someone I am not. I want to be known and loved. But who is the real me? The real me is the person I am when my heart is fully submitted to Jesus. But why am I so distant from those I love, especially the LORD. Am I ghost that I should hide from you LORD? I want to be present and counted. I want others to know I am there. What I give off is totally different of what I feel when I am in your presence. I care about others, and I want to love others. Help me Jesus to be present and not far away. Turn to me and be gracious to me, for I am lonely and afflicted. My spirit grows faint within me; my heart is dismayed inside me. Like a ghost I disappear when people need me the most. Fill my dead bones, give me sinew and tissue, skin and hair so that I can be Christ to someone in need of your love. You exist therefore I exist, the ghost of pasts need no longer stay. I am alive here and now. How can I help you?
Study Ps. 102:3